Fuck this....

I was OK with turning 40 until about a week ago. Perhaps it seemed like a distant thing until then. Perhaps I thought that I would reach all the goals ( and then some ) that I had set for myself long ago. Because I haven't even come close, it's all starting to feel like I am being bowled over.

I didn't lose the weight. I didn't get an agent. I haven't found anyone. Three goals I set for myself 5 years ago. I'm still waiting.

Now I am in a situation where certain people treat me like I'm a fuckin' idiot half the time and then want something the other half. Completely forgetting the fact that they treated me like an idiot the day before, but that's to be expected. I am - quite frankly - sick and tired of helping people fudge their way through life and get all the reward with little or no work. The use my experience, knowledge and creativity on a regular basis like it's their fuckin' birthright. Meanwhile they roll their eyes and mutter sarcastic and disrespectful crap under their breath when they think I am not looking/listening.

I'm too old for this shit and too young to be this old.